day one

e-mail that says it all…sort of
annafine~
fine. then i’ll call you annafine! well duh annafine, did you think i was gonna STOP taping GG??????? where would you pick up that conclusion? honestly. i cried before, but on the way out of walmart tonight, i totally broke down. it started with we didn’t go to target like we thought we would, we went to walmart, so i couldn’t get my electric razor (obviously i didn’t tell mom that’s what i wanted, so she had no idea i was upset) and ended with me sobbing about how you wouldn’t need me anymore ’cause you have ellen now, and she gets to steal my big sister. wahoo. i know, that’s ridiculous: RI-DIC-U-LOUS! and i guess i kind of feel like when we could really be friends, not just sisters, you were gone. what about when i have to talk to someone about….. ya know…… “girly problems”? i love mom, but i’m just never quite comfy with that. why can’t we be like stephanie and d.j.?? d.j. never had to go to college! she went to prom and then the series was over and we all lived happily ever after! hey, just pick a weekly night to go to bill’s. that should make you feel better 🙂 maybe i’ll come out for my birthday or yours next year, when i’m a little older. anna, what’s so bad about st. olaf? you’ve been dying to go there forever. (oh, did i tell you that i cried all over the keyboard earlier and i think almost electrocuted myself? lol) is everything okay? hey everybody’s dying to know if you left those OREOs for people to eat, or if they’re YOURS!!!!! *smirk* I’m listening to “ULTIMATE” from Freaky Friday right now. OOOOH, GUESS WHAT! My Hilary Duff CD came! Excietment! did you find paul? if you didn’t….. (((Anna))) that’s a virtual hug. hey, i’m gonna shop with mom for your alarm clock, so i’ll find you a cute one. i need one, too. wow, i like typing long e-mails. love the paul buck shorthand! ugh. my eyes are swollen from crying so much. i’m not trying to make you feel bad. i’m sorry if i am. but i have one last feeling about you going to college. you ready? this is gonna be deep. like, mr. gumz deep. i’ve always wanted the kind of big sister that wears makeup and loves to go cute-clothes shopping with me. (not one who faints in Express) and just a couple years ago i realized that what i really want is what i have. you.
wish you were here right now, hugging me. same your way. goodnight.
love you and miss you to unhealthy standards,
~josie 🙁