coach it

someone* got worried and sent me an e-mail…due to the lack of posts?? or because the server was down for a day? i don’t know…but there’s at least one of you out there still reading my blog from time to time. so i continue.
okay. i’m no longer a fan of senior photos. the actual picture taking experience was deceiving. i thought i’d made it through without a scratch. the photo session was pretty painless. but as it turns out…who knew choosing a picture could be so difficult?? and packages and such?? ehhhh. my goodness. maybe i don’t want any pictures after all.
on another note. the beginning of school. mixed feelings i guess. some of it is exciting. other parts make me sad. sometimes it’s the same parts and the same people that make me both excited and sad. other times i just get confused. i don’t know what to think, how to interpet the little things. i don’t want to lose sight of the particulars–but i don’t want to get so caught up in the details that i miss the obvious….the here and now….the day to day….
sometimes i wonder about my high school experience (or lack there of). i wonder sometimes…if i’d just played the game…how differently things might have turned out. how maybe i’d be sleeping right now with my ap calculus book in my lap…or in a completly different scenerio…well. anyway. is it possible that i was meant to attend parties and dances and run for student council? because there are people that do that…and at least seem to enjoy it. there are people who experience high school in such a different way than i have. they seem to be doing all right. well. at least some of them. but when i think about it, i kind of like things they way the are. the way i’ve done high school works for me. not so much my lonely activity lacking self (on a bad day) as the independent not so stressed time for a good record or some hot chocolate self.
i miss brother ben.
*b, i appreciated the note. time to time becoming more frequent? my life would be more interesting if we chatted once and awhile (and that goes both ways). give me a call sometime. we’ll visit the cocoa bean or something…
note: congrats to these guys, named best new band by the city pages. don’t forget the little people.